8th of january.. the date we know each other.. 1st of february..the date we declared to be together.. i didnt denied that i love you.. cause i am really love you now.. but..fate isn't belong to us now.. cause of you i changes.. cause of you i finally know how to be a better person.. hmm.. the first videos you've sent to me, saying i love you..is meant a lot to me.. the words 'bi'...is something to me.. i love you but i cant say it out now..until the day that we have no more contact, i still cant say out i love you.. 8th of april, 1:08 am.. is that date, is the time that we absolutely no more connection with each other.. no more relations with each other.. no more contact with each other.. i am sad, i am hurt, i am disappointed.. but i've heard what i suppose to hear from your mouth and i satisfied with the xplanation.. i understand.. huh............................... is it we have the second chance??? i dont know.. i dont even dare to think about that.. maybe no... i dont want think too much.. what i know now is we are no longer....................................... hmm good luck and take care.. dont worry me.. i know how to take care myself..hmm .... bye bye... awin ow... never thought that i will be so tough to handle this kind of feeling now.. you are the person that had change me a lot tenderly.. you make me know what i want to do in this life without wasting every second of it.. hmm =) .. i will go on with my aim.. just something missing in it.., is you.. i still will take you as the pusher to accomplish my aim.. either i still wait you or not, i dont know.. hmm.. just if you read this you will know how much you mean to me.. you are right.. now its not the time to think about nonsense things.. its not the time for me to think about love future things.. what i should do now is.. complete my study, get a good result, further my study and have a good life.. =) just what is lack in that dream is.......... hmm ^^ funny.. someday you were here beside me but then someday you'll gone.. but i will show to you.. not just a saying to lie me.. but i will show, i will prove that i will accomplish that mission, i will accomplish that aim.. im grown up.. year 18 is the new age, new stage for me to go through the life.. not the time to think about love.. hmm.. cry???? i couldnt cry anymore after last night.. maybe its because i know what i want to do.. move on??? sure i will move on.. hmm ^^ just for sure now, i still love you that feeling is still there.. and hope that feeling will last stand.. hmm.. hoping you in a good life is so much pleasure for me.. hope you will get what you waiting for all this time.. to get a happy life, happy family and hope.. you'll get your own good.. ^^ hmm..................
to be continued........................
