is it my fate always like this?? keep getting hurt? huh......... ya i still love M but am i wrong?? am i wrong to love someone without he or she knowing still. i broke up with M few months ago. loving M one and half year.. but am i wrong?? i didn't bother M relationship.. but honestly is it wrong ?? i didn't try to mess up M relationship with M gf like M gf mess up my relationship with M before.. i still remember 29/6 my birthday, i accept the most hurt present i have.. M says break to me. the reason? M keep sticks with her gf..that's the reason.. i almost die but did M ever care me? no,she's not..but when her gf hurt her knee only, M there accompany her gf. when i know that, i was so much hurt. but i keep pretending that I'm okay. but hiding my exact feel is that wrong too?? i keep cry. i didnt know i cry what for? I'm hurt but is that worth for me?? ya.. time and tide wait for no man. sometimes I'm thinking is it really i ever be in M heart? is it true M ever love me? or just me wasting my time like M gf said before?? huh..................i don't know what happen to me.. i have no confident, i always think about this things. and hope that fate will give M back to me.. even i know that's not gonna happen at all. just for one sure i love you and i always do    :'(