haih..i getting awkward with 'M'..I felt i want to cry:'(..why i always get hurt..is it the fate wont give me the happiness anymore????so damn hurt now!!!people asking 'you're not happy now????' , i would say i'm okay i'm happy..and i will make e big smile towards them..and i thinking how much ego i am..how much drama i am...hmm.....cause of one broke up i change til like this..is that worth????hmm M didn't care about me..M didn't think about me..so why i should keep like this????huh..........very complicated feelings :( :( :( :( and i should not deserve like this!! very horrible feelings i had now...