i think you know what you want now.. hmm =) and i guess i know what i want now.. what i want is done what im target about.. nobody have inspire me..nobody have encourage me to do something.. finally i've got the person to push me to achieve on what i want.. finally i've got the aim that i never had before.. =) i think i can do it.. i loving you.. you know how much i love you.. but unrequited love is much hurting than anything.. maybe our fate is just to be a good friend.. not to be a couple.. hmm.. based on what we promise, sure i will wait..i  will wait that day for us to be together again.. but i have to ready on mentally too incase that you will not to be at my side when i had achieve the aim.. =( i realise that you still love her.. and i realise that i am nothing inside your heart.. i know you love me when we be together but the feels cant compare to how much you love her.. right?? i can accept it.. =) when be with you i realise i heve change a lot.. started to care someone we love really happiness.. the feel that i never care about before.. =) .. i have no longer had the kiddo's attitude ..=) .. maybe you change me to mature or i learn from the surrounding to be a mature person.. hmm.. i hurt but finally i cant comtrol my feels.. like you always say.. feels is control by ourself..is it?? ya, now i realise what the meaning of your words.. maybe i grown up from the past.. for the final word of this post..i will wait.. i will wait your heart come back to me again.. one and half year is not long if we really sincere to done our things for that long of time.. hmm..