我会等你

如果我还可以说我爱你 ,  我会说给你听  ..   但我没有机会  ..  你不属于我 ..     我还可以 怎样  ??  我想念你 , 我真的好想你 .. 但是你有想念我 吗 ?  你也许不想念我  ..    我很伤你的离开 ..  从来没有想到 , 我很艰难的，面对伤害 .. 我希望你知道我爱你 , 我的心会爱你  决不让其他人取代你的位置 .. 这是我的承诺 ~~

TODAYS EVENT `^`

TODAY i clear my room .. because i have nothing to do .. so after i bought my books for my "prauniversiti" study .. i back home and clear my lovely room .. owh! ^ this picture is before i clean and clear my room =) .. haha .. really mess up .. ><

after few hours i think i finished clean up my room and make over of it .. woo ! does it look nice ????? =)

and this are my make up table .. as you all can see lots of girl things at there .. =)

this spot , which i love the most .. <3 .. ouh ! its make me thinks a romance place i guess .. haha .. whatever ! so , today event is MAKE OVER MY ROOM !

有一个人   你会很想每晚对他说‘ 晚安 ’。
有一个人 他不会主动和你聊天 但你会忍不住想和他聊天

有一个人 你一上线就会去看他在不在.
不在就一阵失落 在 又不敢打扰他.

有一个人 他的状态签名只要一换你立刻胡思乱想 揣测不安

有一个人 你在线只是在等他]而他的头像却不会在你的MSN里抖动

有一个人 你总是忍不住去看他的空间
即使他什么新鲜事都没有。

有一个人 你会看他的最近来访和留言
然后又胡思乱想 揣测不安

有一个人 你一直在等他
他却忘记了你

有一个人 你真的好爱他
可是仔细一想 你爱他什么。
爱他的坏？



有一个人 你以为他是你的永远
但是他却告诉你 你只是他的过客

有一个人 你真的可以对他无条件付出
他却不稀罕 对他来说 你只是负担~

有一个人 你那么那么舍不得
他却那么随意 洒脱 不在乎



有一个人 教会你怎么去爱了
但是 他却不爱你了

有一个人 你总说要放下他
却总是忍不住又拿回来回味

有一个人 你真的好想他快乐
所以你宁愿自己不快乐

有一个人 离开他的时候你笑了
但是一转身 早已泪流满面

有一个人 你好想大声告诉他
我真的好后悔爱上你了
因为 你发现 你真的 是真的爱他
但是他不爱你了 这就是事实


那个骄傲的你去哪里了？

MY prauniversiti necessary...

i miss you..........

live . love . like nature

am i creative in photo ?

i am obsessed to edit picture .. ^^ but sometimes i get tired but i never stop from doing so...cz i am obsessed in photography .. LOL !! so am i creative ?? <3

cosmetics and somethings i need to hang out

OPPSS!!!

DID MY LIPS LOOK'S LIKE ANGELINA JOLIE?

3 of us

heart sayings...

very upset today .. my head keep think about the you .. i love you .. i do really love you but i have to let go .. i really had to let go .. the last we talk phone , if you still remember what you said to me .. " i just treat as usual friend " .. when hear that , if you know the feeling , its very hurt .. but ya , i know how to hide my feels from others .. so i pretend i had nothing impressions with it .. so , who am i to you before ? sometimes i think that you just use me to forget her .. but why me ? hmm ..

you didnt give yourself a chances to know me .. you didnt give us a chance .. when i love you , you realize you still love her and you cant be with me cause it will be unfair to me .. okay , i accept that .. and even you know that i'm waiting for you .. and you promise you will be give yourself a chance to know me again .. day by days been past .. i realize that the promise you make you will never be able to fulfill it so i give up the promise and flows like naturally ..

you give me hope .. so that i continue to wait for you .. when we be together , your heart is actually loving her and thinking of her .. i accept .. but when the time you decide to move on and let go , i thought that you will give yourself a chance to know me .. but despite , you are not give yourself a chance to know me better .. you are giving yourself a chance to look for other .. when realizing that , its make my heart broke down .. and im thinking , did i deserved to taste and to feel the pain ?

my spirit go downs .. days past with waiting .. waiting for your call , waiting for your message .. but i didnt received any calss and message from you .. until one day , when we quarrel about the picture .. about the first picture , thats is really my fault and convince and admit that is my misunderstand .. but the second picture , if you think as much as possible , which girl , girls that loving you will not felt pain felt hurt with picture ? you just knew that girl for few days and you put your profile picture with her picture together , which person will not misunderstand about it ? i bet your friend are asking about it too ..

she's move on .. and why not you move on ? despite you are acting like a kids by doing so .. when you did that , had you ever think the people that love you will how ? you said you just use her pretty .. i dont want to question about that .. but whats make me hurt is , you dare to put that girls and your picture combine together and make it your profile picture .. but when we be together you never do so .. but thats not a big deal for me .. i am nothing with that ..

after the argument that we had , days been past .. and we are getting far .. and sometimes i miss you in a way the person that i firstly met .. you changes .. and im thinking is it i have to let go you now ..but i do give my self a chance and hoping i can keep the relations .. but i realize i cant redeem our relationship .. but i cant let you go .. so i let it flow naturally ..

sunday , 8th of may , is the last day we contact .. i called you but we have no more a fun conversations like before .. and i realize that i have no place in your heart anymore .. so after we end the phone conversations .., i send you a message saying that i give up for all of it ..

i realize i still can love you when we have no contact .. i still can love you without hurt feelings , without pain , and without burden you .. i still can love you without your knowledge and loving you in my silent tears .. i'm tired .. i really tired until i cant cried out for the pain ..

you are a good person .. you are not playing me .. just you lost your ways and her leaving change you .. but without your knowing your changes are hurting me .. and i cant accept at the pain anymore .. its too deep until i cant hold it .. im sorry cause i cant be a good friends of yours ..

如果你爱上了别人…我会笑着放开你 【❤】

“如果有一天，你爱的人突然告诉你，他爱上了别人，你会怎样？”

‘放开他…’

这是我的回答…

听着我的答案，朋友接着问我…

“难道，你就不想去坚持那份爱？”

呵呵…如果，真的会有那一天，

‘坚持’我又何尝会不想…

试问，又有几个人能够如此潇洒的说放弃就放弃…

但是，一味的坚持，

是否就会等到自己想要的？

如果不行…又何苦要让自越陷越深…

当爱你的人，爱上另一个人…

别傻傻的以为，

能够用自己的天真，

去唤回那不安的灵魂…

每一天，只能够一个人痴痴的等…

面对那受伤的另人心疼的眼神…

当等待痛苦的眼泪落下…

倦了…累了…

你才会笑着对自己说：

当初，又何苦逼着自己一个人，面对爱给的伤痕…

爱情是两个人的事，

感情的付出，

不是用一颗真心，

就一定能够得到结果…

别傻傻的问自己到底应该怎么做，

才能够维持长久不变的爱情…

总有一天，你会真正懂得，

爱…是自己给自己的伤痛…

给的伤痛，也就只有自己才能够真正解脱…

亲爱的，

如果有一天，你对我说，你爱上了别人…

我会流着泪，

笑着对你说‘分手’…

因为我爱你，所以我知道强求的爱得不到任何结果…

因为我爱你，所以我会毫不犹豫的放开你的手…

因为我爱你，所以我希望你能够得到你想要的幸福…

因为我爱你，所以当你转身离去时，我会流着泪，给你最真诚的祝福…

因为我爱你，所以我谢谢你给了我一次爱的机会…

因为我爱你，所以我深深的明白

爱，是一感受，即使痛苦，都会觉得幸福…

爱，是一种体会，即使心碎，都会觉得甜蜜…

爱，是一种经历，即使破碎，都会觉得美丽…

p/s : this beautiful notes is for you ..

who are my lover ??

people keep asking .. erica .. who are you with now ?? who is the prince charming of yours now ??       > <  no other question that you all can ask other than that ?? hmm .. the reason i keep answer you all i dont know is because i dont have my prince charming > < .. haha .. i'm all single but not available .. hmm .. 

p/s : i'm give up to get involve in love ..

=)

 mothers day ^^
mothers day coming soon .. what should i give my mom ?? ^^ a perfume , a present ??? no .., i will give her a kiss and a hug ^^ .. cause if i buy a things for my mum is equal to she buy a things for herself cause clearly the money i get is her money is it ?? sorry mum , i haven work .. so i cant buy a things for you right now .. but i promise to you that i will study hard to achieve my aim and give you the happiness .. ya , like people said a child achievement is the proud of the parents .. so i want to be success to make you proud ^^ muaks :*

schools ^^
next week . i started my schools .. oh , new uniform .. grey shirt and black skirts .. yii , how come the uniform like that ??? hmm > < cant wait to starts my schools day >>

aim ^^
my aim ?? still the same like the old aim .. study hard for my form 6 and get a good result .. but to have a happy life and to married someone ?? maybe that will be put aside cause its no more can happen ( impossible ) .. but i still will have a happy life with my family =)

love <3
no heart want to find a 'bf' now .. my heart cant open for others yet .. and not allowed others to knocked and stay at my heart .. no .. maybe ya , after 10 years ??? for others to get in my heart .. hahahaha .. i'm give up for love la !!

mothers day for me ^^
well , i got  two son .. haha .. big bear ans small bear .. trust me they wont give me any present for me cause as i mentioned their name .. they just a bear bear .. ^^ their father ?? im divorce about one and half month ago ..

hope in the last relations ??
none .. flows naturally .. ^^

who am i tenderly ??
im erica .. ^^ haha .. just not the old erica .. i realize i change .. ^^

friends . bff . teen life .growth

my BFF <3 love them much .. yan , gonna be an IPG students and after 5 years she will be a teacher .. mey , continue her study at matrix , labuan , sabah .. and how about me ?? ^^ i continue my form 6 .. after this the three of us will be separated and i hope that we still have contact .. the friend of my school life .. accompany where ever i go .. to the toilet , canteen , teachers office , laboratory .. haha ..
yan , sit at my side when at class and mey sit at the back .. a friend that always be my side when i angry , happy , sad , of course when im hungry .. ^^  mey , always take care of me by food side .. cause she know i got an allergic .. haha sorry to  said .. and yan , take care of me on study side ..


hmm p/s : luyee , you are also the most friend that i love .. you always on by my side truly whenever i sad and lost my way .. i will never forget you my friend ^^ just recently the problem i had now , especially on love side , i cant tell anyone about that .. eventhough i wanted so bad to tell you , but by telling you the problem not nice for me and 'him' .. let me past it by myself and hope you will not be offense by that okay ?? not my means want to get rid of you by not answering your phone call.. just gave me some space.. i hope when you read this you will understand .. i love you all .. ^^

another picture of mine ..

p/s : sorry that i'm not pretty as you all think =)

heavy morning ..

today .. when i wake up i felt my heart very heavy .. why ?? is it cause i too miss someone ?? i didnt denied that .. cause i do really miss you .. =( but i keep denied it , pretend that i didnt miss you .. hmm

p/s : i miss you na .......... > <

move on . new life . big changes . disappear

something about myself .....

things that describe me.

- sensitive
-faithful
-love to laugh
-care about the people that i truly love

nickname.

-erica
- bi ( no more )
-ninie
-eca , or maybe bobow

place that i wanted to go.
-Thailand
-an island
-place that surrounded by beautiful nature
-bali , maybe

stuff to bring out everyday.

-hand phone
-purse
-perfume
-comb

the people i love the most and forever.

-mom and dad
-siblings
-**** ** ( bi )
-bff

my bad habit.

-jealosy
-likes to cry
-suspicious person
-likes to think too much


p/s : =)

picture of myself ..

my lil nephew .. love him ..

hand made..

be tough..hmm