why i felt sad today? my heart so.....unpredictable...so hilarious..sometimes me myself couldn't understand about it...i want to cry but...i cant cry..i couldn't let out my single tears to flow down...why?? is it something bad want to happen?? no..maybe i thinking too much...hmm...huh......what happen to me?? i keep sad and maybe someday i could be an emo person... i keep hurting myself .... keep asking myself what happen to me?? why i alsways that sad?? is it i didnt get what i wanted to?? is it my day didnt work as i wanted to?? or is it my fate didint move the way as i wanted to?? i dont know..... huh?? the heart felt so heavy...what kind of feel i having now?? huhh.............................................................................so sucks!hmm

happy CNY!!! ^^ hmm not too late for me to wish here..haha..hmm this few days my rest time not so well..keep tired and kep moody..dont know why is that??? hmm  ... oh ya..i am currently in relation with my baby ^^ mybe you all know is who?? ^^ mmm,,, 1st of february we declared to be toghether..hmm...but..im not sure...yesterday bii involve in an car accident..i am worry and i do care about it...but...i dont know how to show the feelings to bii..hmm i realise...hmm...our relation become cold..hmm started to get awkward..i am scare...hmm i cried but in silent tears ...hmm  ... i dont care anymore... i scare i get hurt one more times >< ... hmm i do love you..i am love you..but if the one who just fall in love also not good ba ... hmm .. i wait la.. wait what will gonna happen to us... just can wait in tears ='(